I think kitty isn't going to last much longer. My heart hurts, but at the same time I feel bad for him, and just want him to let go and be at peace. I don't wish for him to suffer.
I've only slept a couple hours in the past 2 days. I've stayed up all night with him because I was sure he wasn't going to make it. Yesterday he went back to the vet and got more steroids, and he was surprisingly up and walking, eating, etc.
But that only lasted a couple hours, and then he was back, flat on his side. He can't control his muscle movement, and his legs are "peddling". His eyes are flicking uncontrollably back and forth, and he is getting distressed. He starts crying, and even when I hold him he doesn't seem to realize I'm there. His stare is blank. The vet thinks he has a brain tumor, but they say he doesn't act like he is in pain. I think he is just scared, and it is horrible to watch. I want to snuggle and comfort him, but moving him or touching him seems to cause a panic so I'm trying to just talk to him and leave him be.
I've cried for over 18 hours straight, and have been so upset I've made myself physically sick and am having tremors.
It's crazy that he can be up eating, walking, using the littler box, and be normal. Then in a matter of hours he is limp and unable to lift his head. Few hours later he might just randomly sit up and be fine again. I've never seen an animal go up and down that fast.
Pray for his peace, and my strength. I'm loosing my best buddy, and my heart is breaking.
Nearing the End
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She was my running buddy for most of her life and after she was gone I swore I would never run again, but did knowing that she would want me to still run. It was hard but eventually I realized she would always be with me on my runs.
I feel so bad for you because I know the sadness...just remember, myself and these other sweet posters who have left kind messages for you are with you..
Thinking of you,
--Steve
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Is there a reason that you choose not to put him to sleep peacefully? With animals I feel very strongly that's it's better to end their suffering a day too soon rather than even an hour too late.
Is there some expectation that he will return to a good quality of life?
Poor kitty...
February 27th, 2015 at 06:55 pm 1425063318
My sympathies are with you.
February 27th, 2015 at 09:07 pm 1425071255
Yesterday I could have sworn he was going to go any second. Today he is walking, purring, using the litter box, etc. At this time, I can not make the decision when his life will end, because he is trying very hard to hang on.